As of this moment…

The Shoemaker's Daughter. A memoir of days, both past and present, by Rhonda Mason.

…I am sitting at our dining table, with a cup of Milo. It is past 11pm, and Rick is still working in his study. The boys are all tucked away in bed, sleeping soundly. The dishwasher is on, and we will be heading upstairs to bed soon (I hope)…

…I am thanking God for our Jamie, who turns five today. I still remember the day I found out I was pregnant with him – just four months after giving birth to Pete. I vividly recall our utter shock, and how it took a month or more to process the news. I remember the pregnancy, the labour, and the moment I held him in my arms for the very first time. He was and is and will always be a true gift from God. He is a part of us, and our family would be completely incomplete without our Jamie…

…I have five weeks to go before heading into hospital for the final time and birthing this last baby of ours. I am nervous, excited, and impatient all at once. More than anything, I want to see this little one’s face, and every day, I pray that God will continue to sustain this little one’s life…

…I am exhausted to the bone. Every night, I wake at least four to five times to roll over. My hips are permanently sore, and contractions are constant. I am more out-of-breath than ever, and I find myself in tears every second or third night, so overwhelmed I am by the physicality of being pregnant for the sixth time. Without fail, my darling husband listens to me as I cry, and reassures me that he will look after me. Truly, he is my rock (and my best friend) in every way…

…I am craving a slower pace, with more time to rest and more time to just be. I want to savour these last five weeks as a family of six. I want to enjoy my days with Bear, before he starts preschool in a month. I want time to breathe, time to process, and time to write. I want to make an effort to actually document these days. I don’t want this time to become a blur…

…And so, I am taking the first step, and penning these words…